.: happy mother's day... ^^ :.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.........

Mak, slamat hari ibu~~~~~~ ^^
i know u wont be here to accept my wish....
but i want u to know that u ll always be the BEST mother i ve ever had...
even though u re no longer here with us,
but your advices, and all the memories we shared together are safe with us....
till d end of our life... InsyaAllah.....

mak,
i remember that during my school yrs, i would sent u cards to let u know of my
appreciation and love towards u...
i know u never asked anything from us but u would want us to make u proud...
in studies and life.....

mak,
segala pengorbanan mak membesarkan kami,
meninggalkan kerjaya demi anak2.....
amat sangat2 kami hargai....
i would want 2 be like u 1 day....
but i know that i wont be as good as you.......

mak,
again,
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY~~
kakngah sayang mak sangat2......
moga Allah meringankan segala yang mak lalui kini...
dan moga roh mak tenang bersamaNYA...
AMEEN~~


Al-Fatihah.....................

.: Dreaming of her..... T_T :.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.....

Tadie lunch hour sy xmkn.

slalunye mmg begitu if sy amek heavy breakfast.
n i took a nap 4 awhile.
sbb sangat penat otak.

suddenly i dreamt of her.
my Mother.
T_T
tbe2 jadie sangat winduuuuuuuuuu...~~
huuuuuuuuu~~~~~~
huuuuuuuu~~~~~~
mak, kakngah windukan mak...........
its nearly 3months u leaved u....
this Thursday my dad will conduct a Tahlil for my mom@ surau Hartamas...

mak,
kakngah winduuukan mak.........
wish i could see u again........
insyaAllah 1day........
but not in this world.............

AL-Fatihah.........

dis is a pic of her few years back.... mak masih cht mase nie... ^^


this is during my Bro's convo in ALAM. end of last year. mak npk kuwus.... n pucat.....



ps: mak, i missed u sooo much..... sayanggg mak sangat2..................................... T_T

.:Nacik lemak yang mengantukkan >_<:.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Alhamdulillah~~~
eden da konyang.. heee
Sy d office nie.
smnjak, due menjak, tge menjak nie, sy ske bekpes nacik lmak...
make bertambahla berat badan sy T_T
n 1more thing is, ia membuatkn perjalanan kerja sy agak perlahan...
sbb jadie cm nantok2 je.... huuuu~~~
fadh,
jgn dlayankn ase nantok 2 oke..
sume 2 hasutan pihak2 yang xbaek 2...
syoh2, silela la pegi wahai nantok......
^^
cmt bekeje sume.... hee~~~~

ps: pic nacik lemak d atas sgt menyelerekan, bukan?? ^^

.: missing my blog :.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

MIssing my own blog.. ^^
hee~
i edited a lil bit on the settings..
put a few pics..
1 of them is the pic during my lil bro convocation @ALAM..
Missed him already..
he's now with MISC.. a shipping cmpny..
6 months away n then 3 months oliday..
hopefully he ll be fine...
Ameen~~

somehow i do missed my mum 2...
T_T
its been about 3months 1day she leaved us...
i missed all the memories with her....
kadang2 kan, we need someone to listen to our problems...
yes, we do have close friends and siblings...
but its different when we share with our own mother..

She have the quality to make us feel at ease and see a bright sight of whatever problem we face...
i missed her advices, 'bebelan' mak pown saye windukan......

to you,
who still have your own mother,
please do appreciate God's gift...
coz 1 day u will missed everything in her.....

mak, love u sooo much..............................................

.: dedicated to my MOTHER =,( :.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.....

Al-Fatihah.........

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dear readers.

i cant express wut i feel right now.

terasa hati saya menekan2.

and emotion sy: numb.

it all started on.................

17th January 2011:

* received a text msg from my dad that he n my sis otw to Uni Hosp.

my mom kne admit kmbali.

batuk2 n kua darah skett2..

dat nite sy trus lik uma after buka puasa coz adik2 je tgl uma.

mlm cket bapak call n pesan

" kakngah. condition mak getting worse. be prepared k.doa byk2"

i asked "worse tu mcmane?"

"sangat.... pray 4 her k"

sy terus jadie numb. senyap.

adik sy yg lelaki (misc) ajak g hosp on d dot.

sy dgn pyjama sarung sweater je.trus g.

sampai2 d hosp, tgk mak dgn alat bantuan pernafasan n all d equipments....

YA ALLAH....

Sayu sgt hati ni.........

saat tu jugak sy pgang tgn mak......

dan terus menangis..........................................

sy da mule rase akan kehilangan mak............

mak pndang sy dan masih boley ckp

"kakngah, balikla..xpyh stay.esok kje"

mak, mstila kgah xpedulikan da kje kgah.....

ure d most important person in this world for me.........

=,(

....................................................................................

kami adik bradik n fmly mak sume stay up dat nite.

bergilir2 bacekan surah Yasin dan dhikir buat mak. xhenti2........

18th Jan 2011:

seharian sedara mara datang menziarahi mak.

mom's condition???

sudah mulai lemah. hanya nafas mak yg sy dengar.

itupun sudah memadai bg sy sbg bukti yg mak masih d sisi sy....

malam tu kami tuka syif lg bergilir bace Yasin d wad...

19th Jan 2011:

pagi tu slepas Subuh, sy gantikan tmpt kakak.

sy bacekan dhikir dan kalimah syahadah d telinga mak..

sy belai mak sperti bayi yg sedang tidur....

memang saat itu mak seperti bayi yg sedang nyenyak.....

at 7.16 am, tgn mak tbe2 jd kejang,

mak buke mata dan dlm ms bberapa saat,

nafas mak trus berhenti...........................

7.18 am :

doc mengesahkan bahawa mak telah tiada..............

innalillahiwainnailaihi rajiun........

segala urusan mandikan mak, solat semuenye dpermudahkan.....

jam 12 lbey tgahari:

mak selamat d kebumikan d tanah perkuburan bkt kiara.......

ini rentetan mengenai apa yang terjadi saat pemergian mak.

Allah lebey menyayangi arwah mak dan xmahu mak menderita lagi...

saya redha dengan qada' dan qadar NYA.....

Its just that all the memories with her are in my mind rite now...

jujurnya,

mak adalah insan yang paling tabah dan independent yg pernah sy temui....

she take care of all of her child, send us to school, prepare evrthing for us...

mak jugela yang banyak mengajar sy ttg erti kehidupan....

ms kecik2 dlu, mak yg anta ke swimming class.....

sbb tu sy pandai berenang skg.....

mak jugela yg pujuk sy untuk amek class menjahit slps spm saat org len sume amek lesen memandu.....

n becoz of that, sy kenal mesin jahit dan tau jugela basic2 menjahit ni

(tp da lame tinggal..=p)

but most of all,

mak mmg sahabat terbaik.....

mase saye sedey ttg 1 mslh d uia dlu (xperlu d ceritakan kot)

mak la pemberi semangat saya........

dlu ms mak jemput d uia,

mak selalu sembang2 dlm kete n msti selitkn kata2 nasihat dan panduan pd sy.......

n jugak ble mak anta kmbali ke uia,

mak suke tnye,

"nak mcd x? ley drive thru..."

ya Allah................................

sy sangat2 sangat2 sangat2 sangat2

SAYANG KAN MAK SAYA...........

mak banyak berkorban sejak kami kecil lg.....

mak tinggalkn kerjaya demi menjaga anak2 nya.......

ya Allah.....

tangan ini tidak mampu meneruskn kisah2 mak lg....

terlalu banyak untuk diceritakan........

terlalu banyak pengorbanan mak buat kami............

ya Allah,

kini,

ap yang mampu aku lakukan adalah

BERDOA... dan banyakkan ibadah untuk d hadiahkan buat mak......

mak, kakngah akan sntiasa berdoa untuk meringankn ap shja yg mak lalui kini......

Ya ALLAH,

KAU selamatkanlah mak ku....

sesungguhnya mak adalah insan dan ibu terbaik buat kami.....

ringankanlah penderitaan nya.....

lindungilah dirinya dr seksaanMU.....

Ampunkanlah dosa2 nya........

ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku amat menyayangi mak ku..........

semoga mak d tempatkn bersama insan2 yang beriman dan beramal soleh....

AMEEN~

to all readers,

please....

do appreciate wut u have rite now.

sayangilah mak dan ayah anda.

sesungguhnya kita tidak tahu bila mereka akan meninggalkan kita............

wallahu' alam...